“The police said I might not be able to see my son if I pursued charges.”
special by Dentella Dorma Marie Hoyos
I once loved the little Rock but after being raped here literally and figuratively it has changed for me. I have kept so much pain buried inside and at some point you become like a pressure cooker. The pressure cooker blows a gasket. The water is boiling and those boils are tears of a tormented traumatized soul.
I never like to talk about this but will shortly after I was separated from my husband in Barbados. I watched my mother die suddenly in front of me in a home utilities some were turned off. Doctor Richard Corbin in his own words. “Mrs. Hoyos has been under tremendous stress and the sudden death of her mother is related to her divorce.”
Then after my mom died which was the first devastating blow of many. I was dealt another blow. As I was left to fend for myself . I hired some workers to do work on the beach home. I paid them what they asked and they worked late one evening. They knew I lived alone and my boyfriend was gone. I went to rest as I had hired them for a week. I was subsequently assaulted in the very home that I am in now. I had a boyfriend at the time that was supportive and comforting after this hellish ordeal. I can’t believe I am one of those one in four women stats but I am.
I often tried so hard to bury that pain and it comes back when I least expect it and like flood gates of hells fires have been opened. With the help of this boyfriend ( We ) found one of my attackers. He can confirm this and would and has and remains a close friend. The police said I might not be able to see my son if I pursued charges. Documented. I was so confused. What do I do? Catch 22… do I bring justice and not see my son. What was I to blame that I hired some bad workers? Unknowingly recommended to me, this what is being laid at me.
So somewhere my attackers are walking free… Free to harm again. Free to hurt another’s heart. For any tears any woman has if she is assaulted and I did not get them locked up I feel just as much at fault and blame. If I had only been stronger and had the courage and conviction to pursue a criminal case.
… continue reading the story of this courageous woman at Sheri Veronica’s blog Raped, beaten and robbed in Barbados